When I think about my life I can't help but smile. 25 years on earth and many lives lived. I feel like I've been around the sun many more times than 25. I am so grateful. So fulfilled. So happy.
I'm not always happy, but lately I haven't been happier. I feel the joy inside me that I crave for when I go home. I feel more myself than ever. I feel healthy. I feel proud.
If you asked younger Taylor what she would be doing at age 25, she would probably say getting married and having kids. I'd say I'm doing the complete opposite. If you asked me what I was doing this time last year, I was falling in love in Egypt about to go through one of the hardest heartbreaks. What am I doing now? I'm sitting in a surf village in Guatemala drinking a lemonade surrounded by some of the most genuine people I've ever met. I accepted a job here where I'll be living in the village for the next 3 months.
2 months ago I canceled my flight to Guatemala. I had a weird feeling. I rebooked it the same day though and left within a two hours notice. I think the universe knew I was about to change my life drastically. I spent over 3 weeks in Guatemala and fell in love. I knew I needed to stay. That's when I messaged the hostel I work at now and eventually got a position. Fast forward 7 weeks later and that's where you'll find me now. Sitting here writing a blog, reflecting on my life.
Someone asked me if I feel any different being 25. Yes and no. Obviously you don't magically switch how you feel over night but there's something special about 25 already. I feel wiser. I feel more love. Not only for the people around me but for myself.
I think the biggest lesson I could give is it gets better. We all go through shit. I've had some of the worst things happen to me and felt like it was the end. I've had some of the darkest days. I remember going to the doctor at 14 because my anxiety was so severe. It might feel like it doesn't get better but I promise it does. Just give it time. Everything really does happen for a reason. The universe is leading you where you're supposed to go just trust it.
I'm so grateful for every heartbreak. Even the ones that made me feel like the world was ending.
A year ago I went through a really rough one. Losing someone I saw a future with. Someone I deeply cared about and still do. Because of that I decided to get my mind off of him and travel. I went to Mexico, had a manifestation class. Wrote down my dreams. After that I went to Costa Rica. I met an amazing girl that influenced me to work in hostels. A few weeks later I was working in Brazil making lifelong friends. I then went on to work in Portugal having the time of my life. Moving on to Croatia I made connections that got me a job for next summer already. After 3 months in Europe I went home only to turn around and go to Guatemala and Belize. I wouldn't have had the push to do these things or meet the people I've met unless those series of events happened so for that I'm grateful.
The things I wrote down in that manifestation workshop are happening to me now.
I guess what I really want to say is that life is good. I'm lucky to be here. Lucky to be alive.
I can't wait to see what the next year brings and how much things will change. I'm ready, bring it.
I might not be on the track younger Taylor thought id be on but..
she would be much more proud.
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